Thursday, May 14, 2009

I wish I knew more ways to say thank you...

(YAY! -- while I was writing this I found out I am BRCA negative!!!!!! I am so thankful, especially for my daughter. Can you hear the sigh of relief from here, lol???)

I've been on an odyssey the past day or so, three docs in two states. I'm exhausted. However I wanted to put something up here to let you all know I'm still going...still here. But mostly I wanted to say thank you. The comments on my last post were so supportive, so understanding -- I can't begin to tell you how much each of them meant to me.

In fact, all along this breast cancer journey I have been deeply struck by the heartfelt thoughtfulness of each remark...from frequent commentors that I have grown to consider friends, to lurkers coming out of the shadows, or people who just happened here from elsewhere.

And I want all of you to know that whether it be well wishes, support, advice, prayers or just witnessing...it has helped me...oh my, you have know idea how much...REALLY and TRULY you wonderful people have helped me get through what has no doubt been one of the hardest experiences of my entire life.

I am a better person for having read each and every word, for having known each and every one of you. Thank you is so small, but it's sent out to all of you in the HUGEST WAY POSSIBLE!


PS: Thought I should add -- I am still in decision mode, still gathering info. But to allay any concerns regarding time being of the essence: Several of the docs have let me know that approximately mid June would be the preferred deadline for a surgery to occur. The docs I am interested in having perform either type of surgery have assured me I have at least a couple weeks to officially book the date with them. Oh, and I am still awaiting an MRI, scheduled on the 20th, which is a crucial part of the pre-op decision puzzle.

15 comments:

Alison said...

Hang in there, I think you are doing the right thing and researching all of your options. But, finding out what kind of timeline you have to make the decision was brilliant. That way you know that you have a few days or weeks to be comfortable with your decision and research. I really hope the best for you through this very scary journey. Take care and know I am here sending positive and healing thoughts through the universe to you.

La Belette Rouge said...

I wish I could do more than write notes. I want to make you a casserole, come clean your house and make you laugh.
Know I am thinking of you and am here and I so wish I could do more.
Huge hugs and lots of love.

sallymandy said...

Dear Kayleigh: I'm just letting you know one more person is still here, following along with you and sending you more hope and hugs. You are brave and strong. love, sallymandy

notSupermum said...

Yep, I'm with La belette - I feel so frustrated about not being able to do more. I'm a very tactile person, so I want to give you the biggest HUG, talk with you, listen to you, cry and laugh with you.

I'm so pleased that you are BRCA neg, that's another piece of good news. Look at the positives K, I kmow this is a shitty time but you'll get through this.

And will you check your blog email woman!!

Mervat said...

I will also say that when dear friends are having a hard time with something the first thing I do is cook something for them then its clean, fold washing, something. I only wish I could do something for you.

Imagine, La Belette, notSupermum, you and I (and anyone else who cared to join!) seated around a table, drinking tea and eating a slice of the sponge cake I just baked. That would be terrific therapy, for all of us don't you think?

The closest thing to doing something was writing a poem which I emailed to your blog email. I hope you like it.

xxoo

Mervat said...

P.S. Terrific news on being BRCA negative. I hope the news continues to be better.

Sal said...

SO glad to hear you're BRCA negative, beautiful! About time you got some good news ... well, relatively speaking. Sending you more big BIG hugs.

Jane said...

Some good news - may there be suderact
more!

Meg Wolff said...

Hi Kayleigh,
After reading your comment on my blog yesterday, it inspired me to write a related post. I mentioned your post and I was going to use your name and link it to your blog, but I wanted to check with you first (and it was 11 o'clock p.m.!).

If you'd like me to to this I can add it today as it will be up over the weekend too. Let me know. My email is, megwolff7@aol.com.

Kristen said...

yay for BRAC negative!!! You and your family are still deeply in my thoughts and prayers.

(the word verification for me is "prayl" Pray and love!

Trace said...

Wonderful news on the BRAC negative. I am actually and sadly really learning a lot from reading your posts. Hang in there K, wish I lived closer or something and could give you a hug in person. Keep expressing yourself on your blogs, a great outlet for you, we are all here for you.

notSupermum said...

Cooey, there's an award for you at my place :-)

Brenda said...

Congratulations on the good news! I'm so glad you feel supported and don't feel like you are going through this alone. That would be really hard.

Erica said...

Kayleigh, I think about you and your family every day! I'm relieved for your daughter and still in awe of your strength and grace. *Hugs*

Karen said...

Good news, girl. Stay positive and stay dressed. It will help your resolve and others will be comforted by the fact that all is "well." Esp. re: the kids!