Tomorrow I begin phase two of chemotherapy, taking the drug Taxotere. I've just finished Adriamycin and Cytoxan which are supposed to be the worst part...however some women report that the taxanes (Taxotere, Taxol and Abraxane) are actually harder to deal with. Who knows?
I am probably more afraid of this regimen than the former because of the possibility of permanent neuropathy -- particularly in my hands. I fancy myself a writer, after all, and I need my fingers to to be agile enough for typing on a keyboard. The thought that after all of this I can't return to a normal life doing what I love....well, that hardly seems fair to say the least. But then again, none of this is fair.
Forgive the pity party, but it seems each leg of this breast cancer journey has had some huge hurdle, some unexpected turn of events. Major skin necrosis after reconstruction, an SVT after port placement and the worst nausea I've ever experienced after my first round of chemo -- despite all the assurances that the anti-nausea drugs work wonders. So is it any wonder I'm expecting the worst case scenario? As my oncologist says, I've been pretty beat up lately.
So...I am filled with dread, I don't mind telling you. But I'm forging ahead despite it. Okay, not exactly forging...more like limping ahead weakly.
Wish me luck (and you can call me Bitch, too, if you wanna)
11 comments:
DEAR KAYLEIGH,
All I can say to you is that I believe in the power of prayer, and I am praying for you everyday.
I am a complete stranger and NO I don't know how you feel, but I care.
much love, Lesa
I hope this round is easier on you, Kayleigh! I think of you often, and how much of a punch to the gut this year has been for you.
I think the Powers That Be owe you - buy a lottery ticket!
Thank you for keeping us updated, hon. As always, good vibes to the best bitch around. ;-)
Hug,
Sheila
YOU CAN DO IT BABE!
Compression stockings can preemptively help with foot neuropathy, can the 20-30mm ones they make for hands/wrists help for you?
You are a bitch (for luck) and you can and will get through this too. Kick cancer in the azz. You are freakin' wonder woman!
Best of luck to you Kayleigh.
Yo to ma bitch!
You are a warrior, you will beat this thing, and we will all be cheering from the sidelines.
Thinking of you x
If anyone is allowed an occasional pity party it is you! I hope it goes well and the sickness is to a minimum! You're in my thoughts!
T
Cancer sucks ... so does chemo. Wish there was an easier way to fight this disease.
Wishing you all the best.
You will kick cancer's ass. Really, I have so much faith in you. With your attitude and spirit, there is nothing you can't do.
Thank you, sweet lady, for your VERY kind comment on my blog. It means more to me than I can say.
HUGE hugs to you!
xoxo
Be strong - you have come so far and so bravely. You are in my prayers.
All the way up in Alaska...you have an admiring reader praying for you. You WILL survive. You are an inspiration. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. You are helping so many more women in so many more ways than you will ever know. Blessings to you and yours.
With love, FarNorthGirl
you will beat this thing, and we will all be cheering from the sidelines.
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