I still have it -- sorry, lame.
This is what I know: It is invasive, that's what "infiltrating" meant, as I feared. It means that the cancer has already grown beyond the layer of cells where it started.
Best case scenario right now would be for the cancer to still be remaining in the breast only, not spread beyond into the lymph nodes.
Second best scenario would be that if it did spread to the lymph nodes it didn't go anywhere else in my body.
I don't know if there is a third best scenario, what it would be, nor do I want to know at this point.
Other things I need to know are is it ductal or lobular (ductal would be WAY better)...is it estrogen receptive (don't want that***) and the other thing I don't want is for it to be HER2.
***(I've since learned that being estrogen receptive is actually better, FYI)
At least I think.
Much of the answers I need will come after surgical biopsy, some with MRI, Cat Scans, bloodwork.
I have a few appointments. There are two kinds of oncologists, one is medical, one is surgical. I have appts w/both kinds, a couple of each, all between the 8th and 15th.
Incidentally, my husband and mother have been doing all the phone calls and appt making, I've been doing the Googling. I am mostly in accomplishment mode, not thinking beyond the tasks at hand.
My 7 1/2 yo daughter knows everything, she's been talked to about the possibilities all along. She is an angel and a trooper and so amazing I can't even put it into words. She takes such good care of her little brother, always, not just now. We call her "Mamacita" meaning little mother, because she's been like a second mother to him since the day he was born.
Heck with it, I'm tired of saying DD, DS, & DH -- my daughter is Megan, my son is Daniel and my husband is Michael.
What gets me most right now is Daniel. He's only 2 1/2, he still nurses. There's little doubt there will be chemo involved, I will have to wean him, ASAP. Everyone keeps saying that he'll be fine, he's older than most, yada, yada. See, I practice Attachment Parenting, I believe in child directed weaning. (yes, I'm one of those devoted crunchy granola moms)...I know in the scheme of all this weaning him seems minor, but to me it is heartbreaking. Every time I think of telling him no, of refusing him...
I've got to change the subject.
All of your thoughts, wishes and prayers have meant so much to me, I just felt like coming here and updating. Some of this might make little sense, but it's what I've got.
I will try to keep updating...it may be sporadic or it may be prolific, I honestly can't tell right now how I'll feel from one minute to the next.
Thanks for being here.