Monday, April 13, 2009

Update: keep on keeping on

Good Monday morning, I hope everyone that celebrates it had a lovely Easter weekend. DH and I went out Sunday as usual, my mother watched the kids. A few places were open so we had lunch and went to Borders.

We spent last Friday trying to get me a sooner appointment for the needle biopsy -- so far to no avail. I've got two more places to try...but it's not looking good.

Two weeks wait it is then.

If you'd asked me last Thursday or Friday if I could make it that long I would have thought you were nuts and probably lapsed into hysterical crying, again. But over the weekend I grew marginally more calm and resigned. I'm still crying at the drop of a hat, but it's at least a little bit less over the edge.

For the meantime I'm going to keep as busy as I feel like, write what and when I feel like (kids depending) and generally hang on as best I can till the 22nd. It's now less than 10 days away, meaning I could have the preliminary results by Friday the 25th, worst case scenario the following Monday the 28th.

I can do this, right?

12 comments:

Spiragirl said...

You can do this and you will do this. You are a strong, wonderful person. Keeping everything crossed for you that it is nothing serious.

Sal said...

You can TOTALLY do this. Sending you all my good vibes, and hoping a sooner appointment opens up ...

notSupermum said...

This is going to be a difficult two weeks, but you can and will make it. I have no idea what I would do in the same situation so I won't make any suggestions, but just remember that there are people who are praying for you and thinking of you during this time. Sending you my warmest thoughts and wishes, xx

Modest Mom said...

You can make it! Spend time cuddling with your kids and doing fun things to pass the time. I'm still sending prayers up for you.

LeeHovey said...

Of course you can make it, you are a warrior!! And look at all the positive reinforcement you have to help you! Keep up the great work hun!

Chuck Dilmore said...

by the time
the day comes
you will be so spiritually healed
that the doctor may have to search.

"Hmmmm, i thought... no.
er, other side, maybe?
can somebody get me her images!"

Kayleigh:
"oh, i didn't tell you?
i tend to heal quickly."

you can. you will. you are.

Trace said...

Absolutely you can do this!! I still cannot believe you have to wait two weeks. So ridiculous, yet reality. We are all thinking of you and praying for you. Keep writing and enjoying your kids and doing what you need to do keep yourself strong!!!

La Belette Rouge said...

I feel your strength, courage and can do spirit in this and everyone of your posts. I wished we lived closer as I wish that all of us bloggers could come on over and help make the wait go a little faster. I am thinking of you.

sallymandy said...

Oh, dear. Sending you all kinds of good vibes and warm wishes, Kayleigh. And suggestion: throw yourself into something completely engaging that you keep saying you don't have time for. You do have time for it. I hope you can find something to take your mind off it. love...

Kayleigh said...

Thank you so much everyone, your words are like a balm for my nerves.

Spiragirl, thank you, that's so nice of you. I hardly ever feel strong so it's nice to hear :)

Sal -- thank you for the vibes and all your encouragement...I've pretty much given up for a sooner appt, but you never know.

notSupermum, thank you...and it really is amazing how much it does help to know that so many people are out there pulling for me, thank you for all your warm kindness :)

Modest Mom, thank you for your prayers, and cuddling with my kids always was my fave pasttime, but now even more so -- such good advice!

LeeHovey -- oooh, I like that, a warrior, huh? Thank you :D

Chuck, that's a great visual, so positive...thank you!

Trace -- I know, doesn't it seem crazy??? Thank you so much for all your support...means the world to me, really.

La Belette....thank you so much, and oh how I wish we all lived closer too. I'd have you all over every night for copious amounts of wine and chocolate. Then when it turns out that this is nothing we'd have a huge party to celebrate!

Sallymandy -- thank you, and you're right, I should find a project to really engage my mind in. In the meantime I may take my daughter to the movies later to see that silly Monsters vs Aliens flick. Nothing like animated humor in a dark theatre to take your mind off reality, lol.

You all are truly the BEST people and have made this interminable waiting a little easier.

La Belette Rouge said...

I so want to come over and I cannot wait for that party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xoxox

Kayleigh said...

:D thanks La Belette -- this made me smile!